When I was pregnant with Bennett, I felt better than I have in my whole life. The whole way through. I mean, I had sciatica and a tiny bit of indigestion at the VERY end, but other than that, I felt on top of the world. With Cannon, I felt great during that pregnancy too, but it wasn’t quite as easy as the first. I had a two and a half year old to run after, so what can you expect? But I was still so happy to be able to say that I never became one of those pregnant women begging for someone to “PLEASE GET THIS BABY OUT OF ME!!!”
This time…
CAN SOMEONE PLEASE GET THIS BABY OUT OF ME ALREADY???
I feel guilty having that attitude, but for the past week, I have come very close to tears on several occasions just because I am so. darn. uncomfortable.
It started Saturday. I woke up that morning cramping. Lying in bed, I told Josh that it felt like the sciatica pain I’ve been experiencing, except it was coming on in waves and it wasn’t due to a sudden move by me or the baby. I was just lying in bed, hurting every once in a while. Later that day, I was explaining the feeling to my mom. It hadn’t occurred to me before, but as the words were coming out of my mouth telling her, I realized what I was describing. Before I could say anything she said, “Marcie, do you think you could be having contractions?”
It was just strange to think that’s what it could be, because I was still two weeks from my scheduled c-section date and three weeks from my actual due date. With the other two pregnancies, I never once had a contraction before my due date. Bennett was born two days after his due date, and the day he was born was the first day I had ever experienced a contraction (and what an amazing experience that was - really). No Braxton Hicks before then, nothing. With Cannon, nothing. My c-section was scheduled a week before his due date, and I felt nothing at all leading up to that. So I just didn’t even consider that when I first felt the cramping the other morning. I’m still not 100% sure that’s what it was, just because it was only on one side, and it was in my back. Though I’ve heard plenty of people talk about ‘back labor.’
The contractions subsided that morning, but returned later in the day while Josh and I were out seeing a movie (thanks, Mama, for letting us have that little outing). I’m sure the people behind us in the theater loved watching me move from side to side the entire movie, trying to find a comfortable spot. They stopped again after the movie, only to return once more that evening while sitting on the couch. They never got more intense or more frequent; just the same uncomfortable cramping in my lower right back.
Sunday and Monday I didn’t feel them at all. Completely gone. But I was worn out. From doing nothing. I just sat around all day, unable to muster the energy to do a thing. While the boys were napping on Sunday, I sat down on the couch and just stared into space for a long time. I caught myself several times with my head back on the couch and my mouth wide open, asleep. I’m sure that was a lovely sight when Josh walked into the room to check on me. I had no TV on, no radio; just sitting in silence. It felt nice, just to rest. Until I tried to get up and walk, which proved quite difficult. The longer I sit in one position, the longer it takes me to ‘learn to walk’ again. I look like a 90 year old woman trying to get to her walker so she can go into the kitchen. It’s lovely.
Yesterday Cannon and I met my parents at Cracker Barrel for a delicious breakfast that I had been craving for a while (their pancakes are from heaven). After that, they took Cannon back home with them so I could return a few things from Christmas before having to get Bennett from Montessori. I first went to Bed Bath and Beyond. Thankfully, the ‘expectant mother’ spot was open right in front, so I took advantage of that (almost certainly for the last time :( ).
As I walked into the mall, with every painful step I debated turning right around and going back to my car. But Bed Bath and Beyond is right there, so I was able to make those returns before heading back to my parents'. Seeing the condition I was in, Mama and Daddy offered to get Bennett for me so I could just take Cannon home and lay him down for a nap. They kept Bennett until supper time, which was a huge help.
I napped while Cannon napped, and then pretty much assumed my position on the couch and stayed there until I fell asleep for the night. The cramping started back around 7:30 and lasted for about an hour. This time she was moving around quite a bit, making it painful. I got up to eat a bowl of cereal, but that was about all I did. Josh fixed the boys’ supper and put them to bed. I did read Bennett’s stories to him, but from the couch rather than upstairs like we usually do. I felt pretty useless, but didn’t feel too bad about it, because that’s what I obviously need right now.
I’m getting ready to call the doctor to inform them of my condition the last few days. Every time I go in they ask if I’ve had any contractions and how I’m feeling. And every time I say, “Nope, not the first one! And I never had any with my other two pregnancies, so…” And they say, “Okay, well there’s no reason to believe you would with this one either.” My last appointment was last Thursday, and boy, have things changed since then.
I'm not sure if they'll move my c-section up, put me on bed rest, or just say 'Hang in there!' We'll see...
(Oh, and I want to post the pictures of my last two cakes, but Blogger says I've reached my maximum for pictures. Boo. Guess I'm gonna have to pay them something if I want to put up any more. I'll figure something out soon.)